BUDDY INFO: CANDYDANDY24
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Back when I could rely on puberty to keep me ugly, I pledged my loyalty to the white girls.
After you get used to it, you won’t feel it, they said, gifting me my first thong. We played Kill-Fuck-Marry on
Notebook paper. We dialed *67 & called 1-800-HOT-LIPS. The white girls renamed me Andy & left
Glossy mouth marks on me. Ma told me I couldn’t talk to boys. This reduced the risk of pregnancy to zero.
Anonymously in health class, I asked how female condoms should be worn. Girls don’t use condoms. My
Brown girl body was primed for atrophy. The white girls couldn’t protect me from the shapes of a man. I
Learned to vacate my body instead. The white girls taught me how to play M.A.S.H. Close your
Eyes. When you’re ready, say stop—to search for a Polaroid memory other than my own.