nostalgia is a hurricane

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papi taught me about nostalgia 
with his old cassette tapes 
on the 350 
above all, I remember Jaramillo 
I imagine he also cried 
and has tried not to forget 
but I don’t blame him 
sometimes you have to fight with the air 
destroy walls that once protected 
and take out the smell by burning things 
I recognize you were there, Pá 
—in your own way— 
that at times 
there isn’t enough body to be present 
and that’s ok 
I forgive myself for hating 
I forgive you for not understanding till this date 
that I try to bring you closer 
I forgive us for the rupture 
you and I are a loose end 
trying to return to a place that will never exist again 
(or so I think) 
I will forever keep your last te amo 
and the embrace that could only be brought by disaster

Ketsia Ramos is a transdisciplinary artist from Adjuntas, Puerto Rico, artist in residence of Taller Libertá, and founder of Edtorial Casa Cuna and the festival LA JUNTILLA. They have exhibited their work for more than a decade across the Caribbean and South America in an effort to decentralize the arts. Their recent publications include Selección de poesía inédita (2019) and Aceite de palo (2022), with both poetic works focusing on self-knowledge, healing, and violence from a decolonial Caribbean perspective. Ketsia Ramos es artista transdisciplinaria de Adjuntas, Puerto Rico. Es artista residente en Taller Libertá y fundadore de Editorial Casa Cuna y el festival LA JUNTILLA. Lleva una década exponiendo su trabajo en el Caribe y Sudamérica en un esfuerzo por descentralizar las artes. Sus publicaciones recientes llevan como título Selección de poesía inédita?(2019) y Aceite de palo (2022), ambas obras poéticas enmarcadas en el autorreconocimiento, la sanación y la violencia con una mirada decolonial del Caribe.